Lately, I’ve been suffering from boredom, severe boredom that’s driving me insane. I have never experienced such thing as far as i can remember. I’ve always been under pressure, at least for the last 5 years, for most of my time was spent either at university, or at work, or lets say working wherever possible. Leaving work was not a decision that i regret because at the time i took that decision, it was the right thing to do, i couldn’t go on running around like a headless chicken trying to meet work deadlines all the time ,while on the other hand, i was a full time student on the verge of graduating with heavy courses accumulating all over me. So i stepped back & thought, chill girl, you’re allowed to breath in your 20′s, & you cannot go on letting work affect your studies no matter how much you enjoy whatever you do.

& so i did it. I quit despite promises of understanding my situation, I just had to step back & focus on my last semester. I have to admit too, my grades rocketed back to straight A’s again for i had more time to concentrate on my studies.

Now that i have graduated, I literally feel like I’m doing nothing useful. Yes i do have lots of time on my hands, i started to read more, arrange my place & spend time on the internet surfing, researching & designing, but it’s not enough. I need to be involved in something regularly. People keep telling me to socialize now that i have the time, but i cannot stand meeting up with ladies. My friends, those dear to me & whom i feel myself around can be counted on 1 hand, therefore, i do not have any desire to be around other people. I do not enjoy forcefully smiling to people & acting all interested in what they say, it’s such a tiresome thing for a person like myself. I cannot tolerate shallow gossips and lady-talks. I cannot tolerate talking to ladies on the phone. My friends, yes i can talk to them all night long & feel that i have just started the conversation, because i never find myself drifting to silly talks with my close people.

No matter what they say, i just cannot go with the flow with people i do not have anything in common with, whether they’re family, colleagues or whoever. With that being said, I do hope that you don’t mistake me for being a snob, I am no snob, but i know myself well enough to understand the kind of company I’m always in need of.

My incomplete office/library is my sanctuary. I have many plans to use this place to kill my current state of boredom

Enough of my rambling, lets talk about books

I have a confession, once i mentioned something about a very silly habit of buying two copies of the same book by mistake, well, last month i bought the same book twice in 2 days! i mean how can anyone forget buying the same book just the day before? Now i have a number of duplicate copies on my shelf, and all are of books i haven’t yet read so i don’t even know if the books are good or not! >_< anyhow, I’m thinking of giving away those books to those interested. I will post the book titles once i get the chance and if you’re interested in the book, don’t hesitate to comment, & no you don’t have to be in the UAE, ill happily ship it t your door step, anything I’d do for a reader

As i mentioned earlier, i’ve been having more time for my books, I started reading this book “A Week In December by Sebastian Faulks” a few weeks ago, but i couldn’t continue reading, I really REALLY tried so hard to continue, but after reading a quarter of the book, i just had to put it back on the shelf, I just couldn’t stand all the financial talk in there, & besides, i hardly passed my financial management course. So if you’re not into finance and all, don’t even bother.